Way Station

Im a 43 year old adult and get treated MUCH less of a human being now than I did when I was in my 20s. So for this first blog post. I will be discussing peoples INSISTANCE, I go to this "way station" homeless services place. First, I have to talk about the coordinated effort by certain hands in the community. There are some people who, are actually kind of hard to describe how they are connected, that work together to push EVERYONE in the community to not donate or help in anyway with ANY NEEDS - even if needed for survival or to accomplish being housed - to certain homeless individuals. It has really worked and those of us who have been targeted have been greatly harmed, which I'm sure some of these people are proud of. In my case, at the moment, I have an individual who has let me "get warm" by sitting in an indoor pretty empty small business room with my laptop, which is very unheard of here in Bellingham, because I'm usually not allowed to be inside anywhere because no one wants a homeless person to be allowed in a heated room anywhere. There have been alot of red flags though. This person has been saying before that if they give help to a "homeless person" (derogatory) that if they dont go to the way station within a few days to a week, they basically need to be cut off from ever recieving help getting their needs met, whether its housing or money or items. The way station is a huge tax sinkhole where already existing doctor clinics (unity care) and other "service providers" who already had their own places could say they have laundry and showers available to homeless so they can lure crazies in and essentially find a way to make them dissappear. we already have tons of nasty ass laundry matts I dont want my clothing near, many of the places that allow trash homeless to do laundry make your clothes smell like dead rat or mold, or dirty socks when they come out and you have to throw your clothes away because you will never get that stench out. we also already had a few homeless showers I wouldnt EVER want to get naked near. So, what was the point of creating this place? the only point was to have doctors and mental health workers who view you as non-human humans there. Thats it. Its because, dare I say it, its rooted in that 50s nazi like belief system, that all people are homeless because of drugs or because of mental illness. Bellingham has a lot of crazies but Im pretty damn sure the vast majority of the non-human like crazies (you know the ones showed on seattle youtube videos and shit) dont come from whatcom county and they dont generally even come from within 4 counties of us. A bunch of the dangerous seeming zombie crazie people come from no closer than arizona and more east to all way from the east coast.

This isnt the point of the blog post though, so I need to get to the point. The point is, theres not really a reason why I would go to the way station. I dont like the idea of living like a homeless trash person. Ive already explained numerous times to various people that the way station isnt a place I belong going too. Im not a very stupid person and Ive been outside for some time. I dont like the idea of acting like a mentally ill twack inviting some quazi mental health nuts that call themselves doctors, into gaslighting me into believing that Im homeless because theres some demon mental illness inside of me thats not showing me many symptoms yet, because I somehow dont see them when everyone else does.

Thats just not my cup of tea

Its supposed to be 21 degrees outside and between 5 and 15 with windchill. Last month my bank was heavily overdrawn paying ONLY basic bills (something I had never done before working online). Food prices are out of control and all meat is horrible quality (as in unsafe) these days at grocery stores. So, Im despirately needing some fundraising done and Im being told on nextdoor and all over facebook that I need to go to the shelter or way station and am not allowed to earn money or fundraise because I get viciously attacked and slandered, online any time I try. Its life or death temperatures and they are attacking me and making sure no one donates to me. The way station has NO PURPOSE for me to go to. I cant stress enough that I dont subscribe to living a mentally ill homeless person lifestyle. AND I ALSO HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE NOT TOO. The way station only has services that tell you where rehabs and mental health housing is that I dont belong anywhere near, and rightfully so. So they will not help me with housing. What would help me with housing? FUNDRAISING, or people buying enough of my work- those are the only two ways I'll get housing. The person Im dealing with that wont stop bringing up the way station as some way to manipulate me, is not a good person any longer even if she let me sit in a room out of the cold. Ive reached the age that if someone isnt listening to me when I explain to them why a place isnt an option and they keep demanding its the only thing I can do and I have to just do what Im told, it doesnt matter if that person has handed me a $20 bill any longer, theyve gotten themselves on a - this person isnt(or may not be) healthy for me to be around list. Some people even go behind my back and try to stop any progress toward housing I could make- such as my gofundme, and telling people and mutual aid groups not to give me money. Ive seen it be done by many "homeless advocates" that demand people not get into housing without "services", services that specifically dont give you housing, just a homeless shelter bed, typically mind you.